This is the word-for-word transcription of a holy conversation. It is a conversation with God about being Home with God. It is the last installment of an extraordinary dialogue covering nearly 3,000 pages in nine books written over eleven years and touching on all aspects of human life.

The dialogue at one point journeys into territory lying at the furthest frontier of spirituality:
the cosmology of all life. It offers a breathtaking glimpse of Ultimate Reality, presented
through metaphor. It reveals in simple, accessible language the reason and purpose for
living, ways in which humans may achieve the greatest joy, the nature of the journey upon
which humans may achieve the greatest joy, the nature of the journey upon which we are
all embarked, and the extraordinary end to that journey--an end that turns out to be not an
end at all, but an ecstatic interlude in a glorious and ongoing experience, the full
description of which staggers the imagination.

The dialogue here is circular. It springs forward in spirals to astonishing new and never
described or imagined places, then springs back to old ground to make sure the next
mind-bending exploration begins on solid footing. If you will have patience with this book--
and, by the way, with your life--it will reward you grandly.

It is important for you to understand how you came to this conversation. If you think that you came to it by chance, you will have missed the enormity of what is happening to you right now.

Your soul hasbrought you to this conversation, as it has brought you to every other
conversation with God you have ever had, in whatever form. It has contrived to place
these pages before you. A myriad of circumstances were, just this moment,
interconnected in a precise way at a precise time in order for you to be gently drawn to the
words you find here, and only the intervention of your most holy soul could have produced
such events so effortlessly. If you are clear about that, you will hear those words in a
different way.

You have been brought here because the Universe understands that you have been
quietly calling for answers to the questions all humans ask. What is really going on here in
this life, and what will happen when this life is over? Will we be reunited with loved ones
who\u2019ve gone before? Will God be there to greet us? Will it be Judgment Day? Will we be
facing the possibility of everlasting damnation? Will we be allowed to squeak into heaven?
Will we even know what\u2019s going on after we die? Will anything Be going on?

Wrapped in the replies to these inquiries are enormous implications for every human
being. Would we live our lives any differently if we actually had those answers? I think we
would. Would we be less afraid to live as we were always intended to live--fearlessly and
love fully--if we were less afraid to die? I believe the answer is yes.

It hurts my heart to know that so many people feel frightened as they approach their time of passing into the next world, to say nothing of when they are in this one. Life was meant to be a constant joy, and death is a time of ever greater joy, when it would be wonderful if all people could know only peace, and happy anticipation.

Like my mother. She was utterly at peace at her death. The young priest who went in to administer the Last Rites of the Church came out shaking his head.'S he ,\u2019 he whispered. \u2018was comforting me.\u2019

Mom had an unshakable faith that she was stepping into the arms of God. She knew what
life was about and she knew what death was not about. Life was about giving all that you
had to all that you loved, without hesitation, without question, without limitation. Death was
not about anything closing down, but about everything opening up. I remember that she
used to say,\u2018When I die, don\u2019t be sad. Dance on my grave.\u2019 Mom felt that God was by
her side all during her life--and that this was exactly where God was going to be at her
death.

But what of those who imagine that they are living and dying without God? That could be a
very lonely life, and a very frightening death. In such a case, it might be better to die
without knowing that one is dying at all.

That\u2019s how my father died. He got up from his easy chair one evening, took a single step,
and slumped to the floor. The medics arrived within minutes, but it was all over, and I\u2019m
sure that my father had no thought that those were to be his last moments on earth.

Mom knew she was dying, and I think she allowed herself to know that because she could
deal with it peacefully and joyfully. Dad could not, and so he chose to leave abruptly.
There was no time to think, \u2018Oh, my gosh, I\u2019m dying. I\u2019m really dying.\u2019 Similarly, I don\u2019t
think there were any moments during his eighty-three years when he said to himself, \u2018Oh,

My father was an interesting guy, and his thoughts about God, about life, and about death
were a contradiction in terms. More than once he shared with me his total puzzlement
about day-to-day occurrences, as well as his utter disbelief in anything at all happening
after death.

I recall one striking exchange, two years before he died, in which he was reflecting on his
existence. It was not a very long discussion. I had asked him what he thought was the
meaning of life. He looked at me almost blankly and said, \u2018I don\u2019t understand any of it.\u2019
And when I asked him what he believed happens after someone dies, he replied,
\u2018Nothing.\u2019

sorts of assurances that surely he was mistaken, that there had to be an extraordinary experience awaiting all of us on ‘the other side.’ I had begun describing to him what I imagined that was all about when he cut me off with an impatient wave of his hand.

I was astonished, because I knew Dad to be a man who, even into his eighties, got down on his knees and said his prayers every night. Who was he praying to, I wondered, if he did not believe in a life that was holy and a death that was only the beginning? And what was he prayinga b o u t? Maybe he was praying that he, himself, was wrong. Maybe he was hoping against hope.

This book is for all the people who think like my dad, for all those who may be hoping
against hope. It is also for those who just don’t know what happens after death, and who
therefore have very little foundation for understanding more deeply what happens in life,
and why. It is for those who are not aware of any formula by which life itself works. It is for
those who are puzzled, it is for those who are not puzzled and think that they do know
some things about all of this, but who wonder once in a while if they really are right…and it
is for those who may simply be scared.

This book is also for those who are not in any of the above groups but who wish to help
another who is, and may not know how. What do you say to someone who is dying? How
do you comfort those who do on living? What can you tell yourself at these moments?
These are not easy questions. So you see, now, why you brought yourself here.

It really IS a miracle that you found this text, you know. A small miracle, perhaps, as
miracles go, but a miracle nonetheless. I believe that it is as I have said. I believe your
soul drew you to this book out of the same impulse that draws each of us onward to our
next step, to our next understanding, and, ultimately, to the Divine.

None of us has to follow that impulse. We may change course at any moment. We may go
in another direction. Or we may stand still and not go anywhere at all for a long time,
stalled in our confusion. Eventually, however, we will all move forward again, and we
cannot fail to ultimately reach our destination.

Everybody is doing everything for themselves…When you
Understand that this is true even about dying,
You will never fear dying again.

“You’re right. I wanted to make sure that we have this larger conversation, and so I placed
those words in our mind every time you thought seriously about life or death, even for a
moment. This is a conversation you’ve been reluctant to have, and have put off

Yes, I know. It’s not that I’m afraid to talk deeply about life, or even about death, it’s just that these are very complex subjects and I wanted to make sure I was really prepared to enter into a huge conversation about them. I wanted to be psychologically and, well, I guess, spiritually ready.

“I want you to hear them over and over again.
“It is impossible to live or to die without God, but it is not impossible to think that you are.
“If you think that you are living or dying without God, you will experience that you are.
“You may have this experience as long as you wish. You may end this experience

“We can. How deep do you wish to go in your higher understandings? Should you choose
to continue with this conversation, I will present you with 100 more words--a 100 Word
Formula for All of Life.”

“Everybody is doing everything for themselves. When you awaken to this awareness, you
will have reached Breakthrough. And when you understand that this is true even about
dying, you will never fear dying again. And when you no longer fear dying, you will no
longer fear living. You will live your life fully, right up until the very last moment.”

Once you answer most of the questions you’ve ever had about
death, you’ll have answered most of the questions
You’ve ever had about life.

“It is as I have told you in previous conversations. You have nothing to learn, you have
only to remember. The conversation we are about to have, as with all of our
conversations, will help you to do that. It will lead you through a series of Remembrances
about life and death.

“You will notice that many of these Remembrances have to do with death. This is by
design, for it is through a deeper understanding of death that you will most quickly reach a
deeper understanding of life.

“Some of these Remembrances may be surprising, for they will challenge much of what
you thought you knew. Others will not surprise you at all. As soon as you hear them, you
will be aware that you knew that all along. Taken together, these Remembrances will bring
you back to yourself, reminding you of all you need to know in order to experience that
you are Home with God.”

Humanity has waited so long to have a new conversation on these larger matters. Most of what we hold in our collective reality is from ages past. We could use some ‘new wisdom’ here.

“Every living thing has this natural awareness built in. It is part of the system. It is part of
the process that you call Life. This is why, when people are confronted with great wisdom,
it often sounds so familiar to them. They agree with it almost at once. There is no
argument. There is only a remembering. It is part of their Divine Natural Awareness. It is
said to be ‘in their DNA.’ It feels like, ‘Ah, yes, of course.’”

"So let us now open this new conversation in earnest, allowing you to remember what you
have always known. Let us talk with a fresh voice about these things, in order that you
might refresh your cellular memory, that you might find your way Home.”

There will be portions of this conversation--especially when we get into discussing when
we get into discussing the whole cosmology of life--that will seem ’way out’ to many
people.

“I have no doubt that the explorations and the mental excursions we’re about to undertake
will enhance your ability to deeply comprehend what is true about life and death--yet some
of them may seem so far afield and so esoteric that you really could be tempted to edit
them out.”

“Yes. What you call ‘death’ is wonderful. So do not grieve when a person dies, nor approach your own death with sadness or foreboding. Welcome death as you have welcomed life, for death IS life in another form.

THE SECOND REMEMBRANCE
You are the cause of your own death. This is
Always true, no matter where, or how, you die.

“It is one of the most powerful moments you will ever encounter. It is a tool. Used as it was intended, death can create something quite extraordinary. This, too, will all be explained to you.”

Okay, okay, hold it. You’re taking my breath away. Can we slow down here just a bit? Can we go over some of this one more time, and fill in a few of the blanks? What you just said there leaves me with a lot of questions.

Great. So let’s start with this idea of using death as a tool. That thought is brand-new to me. A tool is something that one uses on purpose. It’s something that one wants to use. But I don’t want to die. Nobody wants to die.

If I thought that were true, it would be so comforting that would be so wonderfully healing to know. But how can I embrace that as my truth if it is my experience that lots of things happen that I do not want to have happen?

It’s pretty darn hard to tell someone whose daughter has been raped, or whose entire village has been wiped out in a vicious act of ‘ethnic cleansing,’ that no one has been victimized.

“It would be non beneficial to speak in this way to people while they are in the midst of their suffering. During such moments, simply be with them with deep compassion, true caring, and healing love. Do not offer spiritual platitudes or intellectual excursions as a remedy for their pain. Heal the pain first, then heal the thought that created the pain.

“Of course it is true that , in the ordinary human sense, there are those who have been the
‘victim’ of terrible occurrences and circumstances in life. Yet this experience of
victimization can be real only within the context of normal--and therefore extremely limited-

“When I say that true victimization does not exist, I am speaking from an entirely different level of awareness. Yet this is a level of awareness that human beings can achieve, once their pain has been healed.”

“What I am saying here is nothing more than what nearly all of the world’s traditional
religions have said for many centuries. ’Mysterious are the ways of the Lord,’ they have
proclaimed. ‘Have faith in the God’s perfect plan.’

“Later is this conversation we’ll have an opportunity to explore this idea of a perfect plan,
and we’ll also take a look at how it is that many different souls interact together to produce
the individual and collective outcomes of life on earth in a particular and perfect way for a
particular and perfect reason. In fact, I am going to ask You to give Me an example of
that.”

I will try. I will try to hold that thought, and to embrace that in my heart, as you have asked.
But you’re going pretty fast here. You’re moving pretty quickly. We’ve engaged in this
dialogue just a short time, and already you’re into…may I say it?…into the ozone. I mean
no disrespect, but just where is this conversation going?

A lot of people who I know would pray about it. They would pray for an answer, for some guidance, in the face of their deepest questions about life and death. And when people pray to God for answers, and then they get them--often very clearly--they say that God has answered their prayers.

“Just be careful that this does not create in others the impression that clarity lies outside of
them, and that they have to go somewhere else--to you, for instance--for answers. Be
careful not to create a situation where others envy you for having found a way to wisdom,
for they will then want you to show them the way, and that would be counterproductive,
and could even be dangerous.”

“The day that other people start believing that you have access to answers from God to which they do not, you’ll become dangerous. So it’s your job to do whatever you can to make sure that the world does not think this of you. You would be well advised to not let the world make a special case out of you.

“Take whatever measures you think may be required to ‘de-specialize’ yourself. You are special, of course. The idea here is to eliminate the thought in anyone else’s mind that you are somehow more special than others.”

“Do something totally out of character for the kind of person that people may want to
imagine you as being--something that a ‘saint’ or a ‘guru’ would never do. Manage a rock
band. Become a stand-up comic. Open a bowling alley.”

“It’s just people don’tthi nk they are. That’s the point. So, do something outrageous, something that will have people scratching their heads, something that will have them denying your specialness, and even accusing you of being very UN-special.”

Heck, just telling people the story of my life should be enough to get them to do that. I’ve
made enough mistakes, done enough things that no one would approve of, to make it
impossible for anyone to hold me in a very special place.

“Not likely. Unless you allow them to. So just keep being human. Forgive yourself, and ask
the forgiveness of others, for all your mistakes, old and new. Then go out and tell
everybody that the answers they seek lie within them.

It’s all very well and good to tell people that, but it’s been said so often that now it seems like nothing more than a worn-out aphorism. I mean, ‘The answers lie within you’ is just one stop removed from ‘The force is with you.’

These statements you are making are just so…I don’t know…disconnected from our
actual experience. How can I believe that every answer is ‘within me.’ and has been since
birth, when I experience that I have so much to learn?

“Consider the tree outside your window. It knows nothing more now, when it is fifteen feet
tall and covers you with the shade of its gigantic umbrella, than it did when it was a tiny
seeding. All the information that it needed in order to become what it is today was
contained in its seed. It had to learn nothing. It merely had to grow. In order to grow, it
used the information locked inside its cellular memory.

“All of life is interconnected. No aspect or individuation of the Whole acts independently of any other aspect or individuation. Life continuously creates interactively. We are producing outcomes mutually. There is no other way We CAN produce.

“There are many things that exist in your outer world that can lead you in the direction of your inner truth. Yet even those people, places, objects, and events are only reminders. They are like signposts.

“That is, in fact, what the ‘outside world’ is all about. The physical world is designed to provide you with a context within which you might Experience outwardly what you Know inwardly.”

“Let us imagine that you have walked out of the clearing and deep into a forest. You have never walked so deeply into the woods before, and you know that you are likely to have a little difficulty locating the clearing again. So, you place markings on the trees as you go.

“These markings are exterior to yourself. Ultimately they will lead you back Home, but they
are not ‘Home’ itself. The markings show you the trail, the path, the way--and the way
looks familiar to you. You recognize it. That is, you ‘re-cognize’ it, or ‘know it again.’ Yet
the Way is not the Destination, Only you can take yourself to the Destination.

But then, if everything in my outer world is a signpost, how does any single part of it have
any significance? That would be like walking down the street and arriving at an
intersection, only to see all the signs pointing in different directions, yet all of them saying

“All paths take you there, because all it takes to get there is true desire, a pure and open
heart, and faith that God has no reason to say, “No, you may not be with me,’ to any
person for any reason, least of all because they’ve simply believed in God has no reason
to say, ‘No, you may not be with me,’ to any person for any reason, least of all because
they’ve simply believed in God in a different way.

“All true religions are wonderful and all true spiritual teachings are paths to God and no
one religion and no one teaching is more ‘right’ than another. There is more than one way
to the mountaintop.

“Religion was created by human cultures to assist those who are born into those cultures
in knowing and understanding that there is an ever-present source of help in times of
need, strength in times of challenge, clarity in times of confusion, and compassion in times
of pain.

"Religion is also a manifestation of humankind’s instinctive awareness that rituals,
traditions, ceremonies, and customs have enormous value as markers that assert a
people’s presence in the world, and as the adhesive that secures that presence by holding
a people’s culture together.

“Each culture has its beautiful and singular tradition honoring a beautiful and central truth:
that there is something larger and more important in life than one’s own desires, or even
one’s own needs; that life itself is a much more profound and far more meaningful
experience than many people at first imagine; and that it is in love and mutual concern
and forgiveness and creativity and playfulness and the joining of hands in a united effort to
achieve a common goal in which will be found the deepest satisfactions and the most
wondrous joys of the human encounter.

“Take then, each of you, your own path to Me. Undertake your own journey home. Do not
worry or render judgments about how others are taking theirs. You cannot fail to reach
Me, and neither can they. Indeed, you will all meet again when you are together at Home,
and you will wonder why you quibbled so.”

Oh, and we have argued, haven’t we? We have argued endlessly. We have quarreled and we have fought and we have killed and we have died because we have insisted that ours is the right way--in fact, that ours is theonly way--to heaven.

“Do not believe a single thing I say.Lis te n to what I say, then believe what your heart tells
you is true. For it is in your heart where your wisdom lies, and in your heart where your
truth dwells, and in your own heart tells you is true. For it is in your heart where your
wisdom lies, and in your heart where your truth dwells, and in your own heart where God
resides in most intimate communion with you.

No matter how beautiful and tempting those woods may look from the roadside, I don’t have to step into the thicket, I don’t have to get lost in them and then try to find my way back out.

Every day I promise myself that I am going to stay on the path, yet every day I am
tempted by life to get caught up in all manner of‘dra ma s ’ having nothing to do with who I
am or where I am going. Before I know it, I’m in the woods again.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep.
And miles to go before I sleep.
And miles to go before I sleep.

But if my soul knows that I have no need to return to God because I never left God, then what is my soul trying to do? What is the purpose of life on earth, from the soul’s point of view?

“I can tell you in four words.
“Your soul is seeking to experience what it knows.
“Your soul knows that you never left God, and it is seeking to experience that.
“Life is a process why which the soul turns Knowing into Experiencing, and when what you

have known and experienced becomes a felt reality, that process is complete.
“Home, it turns out, is a place called Completion.
“It is the Complete Awareness of Who You Really Are through the Complete Knowing and

“This Separation is an illusion, and your soul knows this. Completion can therefore be defined as the moment when Separation ends, the moment of your reunification with Divinity.”

Knowing and Experiencing, which produces Feeling.
“Awareness is the Feeling of what you have Known and Experienced.
“It is one thing to Know something, it is quite another thing to Experience it, and still

"You can Know that you are any aspect of Divinity--for instance, that you are
compassionate--but when you Experience your Self being compassionate, then your
awareness is made Complete through the living of that Feeling.

“When you do not ‘feel like yourself,’ it is not because you do not Know who you are, it is
because you are not Experiencing it. You must add Experience to Knowing to produce
Feeling.

“As Awareness is a twofold process, there are two paths by which it is reached. A soul
arrives at Complete Knowing along the path of the spiritual world, and at Complete
Experiencing along the path of the physical world. Both paths are needed, and that is why
there are two worlds. Put them together, and you have the perfect environment within
which to create Complete Feeling, which produces Complete Awareness.

unveiled. This conversation has really only just begun to touch the surface.
“Let us now examine your last question more deeply.
“You have asked if the shortest path is not the best path back Home. The answer is, not

“The moment of Absolute Awareness--that is, of Knowing and Experiencing and Feeling
Completely Who You Really Are--is arrived at in steps, or stages. Each passage through a
lifetime can be considered one of those steps.

“You then add what you completed here to what you completed on other journeys through
Time, until you ultimately ‘have it all together.’ and Absolute Awareness has been
achieved.”

This is a magnificent explanation, and I ‘get’ it. There are specific things that souls come to earth to accomplish, to experience. Some souls may take longer to accomplish it. When they are complete, it is a time for us to rejoice, for their work here is done.

I’m sure I would benefit from talking about that, but for now I really don’t want to be
distracted here. You were saying that, even though they may not necessarily be ‘better,’
some paths back Home are less arduous than others. I’m intrigued by that.

not studied. They have not prayed. They have not meditated. They have not paid any
attention at all to their inner life, nor seriously explored larger realities. You are doing that
now. By virtue of the fact that you are undertaking the explorations that you are
undertaking right here--that you are having this very conversation--you are creating a path
with fewer obstacles.

“What I am saying here is that whether you take a winding path or a straight one, go
through the woods or walk past them, when you get to your truth about life and living and
death and dying, you will have cleared the obstacles and created a less arduous Path to
Completion.

“Once you know about death, fully, you can live your life fully. Then you can experience
your Self fully--which is exactly what you came here to do--and then you can die gracefully
and gratefully, knowing consciously that you are Complete. That is a far less arduous
path, and creates a very peaceful death.”

“You’re making a judgment that I would never make. There is no way to die ‘wrong.’ and there is no way to not get to your destination--which is blissful reunion with the Divine at the Core of Your Being. There is no way not to be Home with God.

“We are talking here about how to make your life and your death less arduous, more
peaceful. That statement to which you refer is an observation, not a judgment. If you
easily move to Completion with what you came to your body to experience, and thus die
gracefully and gratefully, you have found peace before your death, rather than after it.

“If you approach death in fear and trepidation, agitated and trembling, not wanting to let go, not feeling finished, or feeling afraid of what is now going on in your life, or of what is to come, you, too, will get to your destination. You cannot fail to arrive there.”

“Let us make one thing clear here again. You are always immersed in the Divine. You are
immersed in it right now. Indeed, youa re it. You are Divinity, immersed in Divinity,
expressing Itself as the Individuated Aspect of Divinity known as You.

“When you live--or when you die, for that matter--in fear and trepidation, agitated and
trembling, not wanting to let go, afraid of what is now in your life, or what is to come, you
are demonstrating that you do not know where you are. And the problem with this is that

“You are not on a journey to the Divine, but youARE in the midst of an eternal process in
which you experience more and more of Divinity as you move through it. You are
experiencing more and more of the Core of Your Being, more and more of the Essence of
who you are, as life continues.

“I think it is important to understand that none of this is reducible to one sentence or one word. Still, if you’ll have some patience, I think you will find that none of it is beyond your comprehension.”

“Good. This experience can lead you to that path, butYO U must place yourself on it, as I
have said now repeatedly. I can show you the way Home, but you must take the way
Home.

“I have said that in the truest sense you are not on a journey. You already are where you
want to go. But since you do not know this, your experience is that youARE on a journey.
So, you must make the journey to find out that the journey is not necessary. You must
embark on the path to find out that the path begins and ends right where you are.”

“No. Even if you disagree completely with the words here, you will be lead to your truth--
you will have found the path back Home, because if you disagree with the words here, you
will then know what you do agree with. You will then take another path, you will take
another, and still another, until you find your way out of this confusion, and back Home.”

“Even if you disagree with that event, even if you dislike that person, even if you are not enjoying that moment, all are sacred, for Life informs life about life through the process of Life Itself, and there is nothing more sacred than Knowing, and then Experiencing, what Life has to tell us about our Selves.

“And so, having this very conversation, even if you disagree with it, will lead you to your
truth and your path Home. You will also be led to that path if you agree with this
conversation. Either way, this conversation will get you where you seek to go.”

“Yet sometimes you will not recognize your own marks. If you look at them from a different angle, they may look different to you. They may look as through someone else has placed them there.

“We are talking, of course, about the marks of your life--particularly those that you would call scars. Be careful not to think that someone else has placed them there. That would turn you into a victim, and someone else into a villain. Yet in life, as I have already told you, there are no victims and no villains. Always remember that.”

“No, no, don’t just say‘yes.’ Examine that last statement more thoroughly. Look into it more deeply. That is one of the most important statements I am gong to make here. I said…

“And so, if you look upon yourself as a victim, you will see yourself as one. If you look
upon yourself as a villain, you will see yourself as one. If you look upon yourself as a co-
creator in a collaborative process, that is how you will see yourself.

“If you look upon every event of your life--including death--as a gift, you will see it as a
treasure that will serve you always, and lead you to joy. If you look upon any event,
including death, as a tragedy, you will mourn it forever, and receive nothing from it but
everlasting sorrow.

“Focus on this now. Focus just on this event that you call ‘death.’ Because if you can see
this is true about death, you will soon be able to see that this is true about every other
event in life.”

And if I can see even death as a gift rather than a tragedy, then I can see everything else in my life--the ‘little deaths’--as a gift as well…all the so-called bad things that have been done to me, or that I have done to someone else. And then, there will be no more sorrow.

“Of course you are. And when you’re also afraid of the ‘little deaths’--meaning any defeat
or loss--you’re also afraid to live. So you’re afraid to die and you’re afraid to live. What a
way to exist!”

“What do you think I’m doing here? I’m spending time here helping you get rid of your fear
of the ‘big death.’ Because when you are not afraid of that, you are no longer afraid of
anything. And you can truly live.”

I have a friend, Andrew Parker, who lives in Australia, and whose wonderful wife--’Pip’ she
was called by those who loved her--did just that. Pip died of cancer on New Year’s Eve,
just after the arrival of 2005, and Andrew shared with me an email that he had sent off to a
large number of his and his wife’s friends. It illustrates perfectly what we’re talking about
here. In his e-mail Andrew said,

Pip is the greatest gift I’ve ever had. She came to my life at
a time when I thought I had it all handled, and didn’t. She sat
smiling in the moonlight that first night we really connected
and I knew if I spent any time with her that I’d marry her and
have children. What a blessing she has been! A cancer in her
beautiful breast began the journey of our relationship, and oh,
how her courage and strength showed me the way.

Her ever-present smile and dry wit kept me on my toes,
though it was her unconditional love that had the greatest
impact on me. Her love was as strong as a mighty oak, as
deep and blue as an ocean and as powerful as the tides and
currents within its depths. Unmoving was her commitment to
me and how she saw me.

She looked past the rough diamond edges, the Newcastle
drawl, the swearing and uncouth behaviors that were leftovers
from my yesterdays. She saw only the best in me, and had a
way of gently nurturing that.

Her treatments were brutal, as our primitive medical
treatments are. Surgery, chemotherapy and radiation, hormones
and early menopause never altered the feminine essence that
was my love. The pain of such treatments never brought a
moan of discontent, and with the birth of our children she
glowed with motherhood, feminine energy and profound love.
All were touched by her beauty, both inner and outer.

When we found out she had bone metastases seven months
Or so after the birth of our twins she apologized. It wasn’t
herself that she thought of in that moment, it was me and our

Having her second breast removed hurt her a little. It was
her personal feelings about womanhood and having that taken
away, though she was never more a woman to me than in
those times post surgery. When we brought the boys in to
see her the next day, she lifted, one by one, her children to
her wounded breast, and never winced.

Her strength is burned in my consciousness, her
selflessness and courage are my comforts in this space I now
occupy, a space filled with her memories and still such a long
way to go in my life.

In the next almost three years she lived. Oh, how she lived!
with my business and career in tatters and my struggles to find
myself, my path and direction, she quietly held space for me to
grow. Nurturing my soul with love and acceptance and firm
guidance, she never once let me get away with anything! God,
how I respect her for that!

dwelt amongst the moments. Now I long for another moment
in her presence. How I’d love her given the chance, how
precious I’d hold each minutes, each second, were I to have
those times again.

Pip’s last months and days were her greatest gift to me.
Gradually, she stepped back from my life. No more fine
dinners, it was my turn to cook and clean. ‘Who’ll pick those
clothes up if you leave them there?’…her dulcet tones
resound deep within my brain. I’ve the beds to make and the
washing to do.

How joyously those tasks were completed by our Pip. She
coached me with her beingness during those days, comforting
me as I comforted her. I never felt closer to her and felt
blessed to have the opportunity to serve her.

Then came the time to take her home, take her back to
Perth and her friends and family. I glanced at her during our
five-hour flight and the pain was evident. Such an arduous
journey and none but me would know! She managed in her
usual way, with the utmost dignity and care for others. Pip
insisted we take her on the planned trip to Rottnest Island,

swimming in the azure blue of the Indian Ocean still
appreciating life’s beauty and blessings, the simple things.
Her last days were a journey of biblical proportions, a
veritable forty days and nights in the desert. Her passing came
when she selected her time, in her way. When she knew that it
was to be all right, she gave me the greatest gift of all. To be
with her, sharing space and holding hands when she passed
away.

It was 12:50 a.m., New Year’s Eve. She’d said she wanted
to make it ‘til the New Year rang in and she did, exactly. All of
the pain of the vigil, all of the fear of getting it right, doing
enough and saying the right things--all of it went with her
spirit! Gently, just as she had been throughout her life, she left.
And left me without a doubt absolutely clear about who I am
and why I am here. Her greatest gift to me was taking my fear

My days are now different, that’s true, though she’s never
far away! Our boys are finding the going tough--a love such
as Pip’s is not easily replaced. We still grow together, her life’s
gifts like a Lotus flower opening slowly, petal by petal, as the
forms of our lives take shape, fed by such a woman’s love.

These words in my own way are meant to convey my
tribute to my love, to the mother of my children, and to you,
and to all. We are the better for her being here. I regret not
one minute and I blame no one.

We are all at choice in the matter of our lives, how we act
or react colors our existence. Pip and I chose our love, and
touch as it was, it has given me my life. I choose to view it
from the side of gratitude, not loss and pain. Oh, yes, they are
present with me and are absolutely appropriate feelings. When
you get past the fear you connect with love and with our own
Divinity and oneness.

Love heals. It heals our souls, it heals our relationships, and it can even heal our planet. My wife gave me this love, and I chose to share it with you.

On New Year’s Day I had dinner with the family, then I
went to some of her friends’ place for a few drinks. I left about
11:40 p.m. and as I walked the few miles back Home. Pip was
with me. I felt the energy of creation and possibility, as people
celebrated in their backyards, fireworks went off and Pip’s
angelic noise in my head said, ‘…and you were right, just as

What she meant by that was that she was with God, in collective consciousness and once again at the seat of creation.

Yes, but did she want to get cancer at thats ta ge of herl i fe? Did she really want to leave that early? Something like this would be hard to accept by her husband, her children, and members of her family. They would ask, with deep sorrow, I am sure. Why would Pip

Well, whatever the answer is, I am sure that members of Terri Schiavo’s family have the same question. They, too, I feel sure, would reject out of hand this notion of ‘pre-choice’ in the matter of the timing and manner of one’s death. No, no, most people would say, ‘That is not my experience. And that was not the experience of Pip or Terri, either.’

I know you said earlier that souls leave their body only when their work is complete, and
that this should therefore be a time of celebration, but a soul’s leaving the body can still be
very sad for the people left behind in the physical world--and telling those people that their
beloved actuallyc hose to leave could make it sound as if that person no longer wanted to
be with them, and…well, that could be very hurtful, it seems to me.

I know a woman whose husband died when he was very young. The woman carried the sadness of her loss for many years. But the real loss was felt by her young daughter. She never got over the loss of her father--and, in fact, remains angry with him to this very

I don’t understand. What do you mean when you say that her father may not have
consciously known what he wanted? I thought you’ve been telling me that everyone is the
cause of his or her own death, and no one dies against their will.

“The subconscious is the place of experience at which you do not know about, or
consciously create, your reality. You do so ‘subconsciously’--that is, with very little
awareness that you are even doing this, much less why.

“The subconscious also creates instant solutions to problems. It checks incoming data, then goes into its memory bank and comes up with rapid-fire responses to a myriad of situations, again automatically. If you touch a hot pan, you don’t have to think about moving your hand away. You jerk it away in a split second. This is ana utoma te d

“The subconscious can save your life. Yet if you are unaware of what parts of your life you
have chosen to create automatically, you could imagine yourself to be at the ‘effect’ of
life, rather than at cause in the matter. You could even create yourself as a victim.
Therefore, it is important to be aware of what you have chosen to be Unaware of.

“The Conscious Level is the place of experience at which you know about, and create, your reality with some awareness of what you are doing. How much of which you are aware depends upon your ‘level of consciousness.’ This is the physical level.

“When you are committed to the spiritual path, you move through life ever seeking to ‘elevate your consciousness,’ or to enlarge the experience of your physical reality to include and encompass what you know, at another level, is true about you.

“The Superconscious Level is the place of experience at which you know about, and
create, your reality with full awareness of what you are dong. This is the soul level. Most of
you are not aware at a conscious level of your superconscious intentions--unless you are.

“The superconscious is the part of you that holds the larger agenda of the soul--which is to
move to Completion in what you came to the body to experience and to feel. The
superconscious is constantly leading you to your next most desired growth experience,
drawing to you the exact, right, and perfect people, places, and events with which to have

“You can all go to this place. Some people do it in meditation, others in deep prayer,
others through ritual or dance or through sacred ceremony--and others through the
process that you call ‘death.’ There are many ways to get there. When you are in this
place, you are fully creative. All three levels of consciousness have become one. You are
said to ‘have it all together.’ But it is really more than that, because in this, as in all
things, the whole is greater than the sum of the parts.

“Supraconsciousness is not simply a combining of the subconscious, the conscious, and the superconscious. It is what happens when all are combined and then transcended. You then move into pureBe ingne ss. ThisBeingne s s is the Ultimate Source of Creation within you. You may experience this before your ‘death’ or after it.”

“For a person of continually elevated consciousness, outcomes and results are always
consciously intended and never unanticipated. The degree to which an experience
appears unanticipated is a direct indication of the level of consciousness at which that

“The student of mastery is one who always agrees with the experience she is having,
even if that experience does not ‘appear’ favorable, because the student of mastery
knows that she must have intended it at some level. That ‘knowing’ is what makes it
possible for one person to be utterly peaceful and ‘together’ during circumstances that
another would find very stressful.

“Pip chose the period of her life within which she was going to leave her body, as do all
souls. In her case this decision was not made at the conscious level. Then, having made
that larger decisions upra c ons cious ly, Pipcons c ious ly chose the precise day and time
of her departure--moments after midnight on January 1, just after bringing in the New
Year. You can know that this decision was made at the conscious level becauses he

Perhaps something like that was true about Terri Schiavo. Maybe she did not consciously
choose the earlier events of her life, but maybe things changed when, after those initial
events, Terri was said to have ‘lost consciousness,’ Maybe Terri had not ‘lost’
consciousness at all. Maybe shes hi fte d her consciousness. Maybe she‘found’ herself at
a different level of consciousness-- first, at the super conscious level, where she became
fully aware of what she was creating and why, and then, finally, at the supra-conscious
level, where, having completed what she came here to complete, she achieved Absolute

I believe that Terri Schiavo used her life to invite the people of the world to move to a new level of inquiry about matters of life and death, the soul and God, and about what actions are of benefit to humanity in cases such as hers.

I believe that Terri Schiavo, at a spiritual level, was never, ever a victim of her
circumstance. I believe that she knew during those final years exactly what was going on,
and allowed herself to be subjected to it in order to draw global attention to herself for the
good of all humankind.

“It would be profoundly intrusive and inappropriate for me to reveal the inner super
conscious or supra-conscious workings of this individual’s mind. This much can be said,
however, and I have said it many, many times before, about all human beings.

Well, this is the third or fourth time you’ve made that statement in this conversation alone, but I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: the idea of no one being a victim is sometimes just emotionally difficult for people to accept.

You observed before that this is because most people are looking at life’s situations from the very limited perspective of normal human understanding, but how can those of us who seek to raise our own consciousness, and to assist in helping to raise the consciousness of humanity, hope to enlarge that understanding?

“Speak to humanity of the Tools of Creation: Thought, Word, and Deed. These are the
devices with which you create your micro-reality. These tools are perfect. They are
magnificently effective.

“It is as I said before: If you think that you are a victim, say that you are a victim, and act as if you are a victim, you will experience yourself as a victim in spite of the fact that you are not.

victim? No.
“It is impossible to be a victim of circumstances you create.
“Always remember that.
“Therefore, to be a victim of circumstances, you must swear that you did not create them.

“Yet you may experience whatever you choose. You may experience what you have come to know about who you are as a result of your life in the spiritual realm before your birth, or you may experience something less than that. In this, as in all matters, you have free will.”

This brings up yet another question for me. Is there consciousness before birth? From what you’re saying here the answer seems to be yes. So we are ‘aware’ of ourselves before we’re ‘born’?

“Oh, yes. Long before. The ‘you’ that is ‘you’ has been ‘aware’ of Itself forever. We will
talk more about this later, when we explore in more depth this matter of birth. For now,
simply know that ‘YOU’ have always been…you are now…and you will always be. When
you are born, you simply disintegrate.”

“You disintegrate. You cease being integrated. You cease being Singular and divide
yourself into three parts: body, mind, and spirit. Or what could also be called
subconscious, conscious, and superconscious.

“Therefore, think only what you choose to experience, say only what you choose to make real, and use your mind to consciously instruct your body to do only what you choose to demonstrate as your highest reality. This is how you create at the conscious level.

When you told me very early in this conversation that we are all the cause of our own deaths, the first thing that came up for me was that if this statement is true, then every death is, by definition, a suicide. I’ve been thinking about that ever since.

“The fact that everyone is atc a use in the ending of their life does not mean they are
deliberately choosing at a conscious level to do so. Nor does it imply that they are dong so
in order to escape some condition or circumstance.

“So let’s be clear about what is being communicated here. You are all At Cause in the
matter of everything that is going on in your life--including your death. Most people are not
consciously aware of this.”

But if a person is consciously aware of this--and, by the way, this dialogue ism a king people consciously aware of it--then wouldn’t that mean that when a person dies, that person is committing suicide? I mean, all people are, by these lights, at cause in the matter of the ending of their lives, no? Have I missed something?

“One purpose of this conversation is to help you get in touch with the sacredness of your
physical life; to assist you in coming to understand that life in the body is a gift of
unspeakable proportions.

There’s so much pain attached to suicide that I almost didn’t want to bring this subject up.
That pain is felt first, of course, by the person going through the turmoil that led to the
decision to end his or her life, and then by the family of that person. Can there be any
place of comfort in all of this--for anyone?

“Comfort may come from knowing that the person who has committed suicide is all right. They are okay. They are loved and they are never forsaken by God. They will simply not have achieved what they set out to do. That is important for anyone who is contemplating suicide to understand.”

“There is no such thing as ‘punishment’ in what you call the Afterlife. It is those who are
left behind who are punished. They experience an incredible shock, from which some
never fully recover. All of them feel an enormous loss. Many spend the rest of their lives
blaming themselves. They wonder what they did wrong, they agonize over what they
could have said that might have changed things.

“Ending your life in order to escape something does not create a situation in which you escape anything. If you are thinking of ending your life in order to avoid something, you should know, I say again, that you are contemplating something that you cannot do.

“A wish to avoid that which is painful is normal. It is all part of the human dance. However, in this particular self or himself away from something that the soul has come to the body to experience, not to escape.

“Your own creations. You will face your creations wherever you go, and you cannot
escape them--nor do you wish to, because you have created your creations in order to re-
create yourself. It will not benefit you, therefore, to attempt to sidestep them, or to dance
around them. Dancing your way to the void cannot be done.

Forgive me for going back to this, forgive me for saying this now, right here, as we are talking about ending one’s own life, but earlier you said that death wasw onde rful. Why wouldn’t someone whose life is terrible desire death if it is so wonderful?

“I want you to be very clear here. You will encountery ourse lf on the other side of death,
and all the stuff you carried with you will still be there. Then you will do the most ironic
thing. You will give yourself another physical life in which to deal with what you did

“And so by leaving physical life you will escape nothing, but will just place yourself right
back into physical life, and into the situation you were seeking to escape…except now you
will be back at the beginning again.

“You will not see this as a ‘punishment’ or a ‘requirement’ or a ‘burden,’ because you
will do this all of your own free will, understanding it to be part of the process of self-
creation, for which you exist.”

“When life is used in that way, you will die when you are ready to use death as a tool with
which to create a new and different life. Suicide is the use of death to escape, but it
creates the same life all over again, with the same challenges and experiences.”

“There’s nothing ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ about creating the same life challenges and experiences over again. If you wish to face the same challenges over and over, go ahead and do it. In this, as in all things, you may do as you wish.

“It is simply important to know, if you think that you are going to escape these challenges,
that you are not. You are going to find yourself looking straight at them again. And, of
course, that can get a bit repetitious.

“What makes some people feel that they just don’t want to face their present challenges
anymore is the idea that they have to face them alone. This is a false thought, but it is held
by many.

“Loneliness is the biggest affliction in the world today. Emotional, physical, and spiritual
loneliness--the feeling of being isolated and injured or burdened in a way that no one
understands, and of being without resources--is a formula for hopelessness.

“It is in the face ofe ndle s s hopelessness that, at last, nothing seems to matter except escape. Yet you cannot and will not escape, but merely repeat from the beginning what you are seeking to avoid.

“That is why I come here now to tell you that you arenot without resources,none of you, and I ask you to announce this to all the world. You have but to call on me with absolute knowing that I will be there. You have but to reach out with absolute faith, to see me reach back.”

Why do we have to reach out to you before you reach out to us? If you really are an all- knowing God, then you must know when we need help. If you really are an all-merciful God, then you must be willing to offer that help--without our asking. If you are an all- loving God, why don’t you love us enough to help us without us having to beg you?

you, and you have not been there! Do you think I have not asked for God’s help? For God
sake, why do you think I’m so desperate! I’m so desperate because it seems like even
God has let me down! I’m utterly deserted here. And I want none of it anymore. I’m done.
Finished. Through.’

“I want you to consider now the possibility of a miracle. There is a reason why you have
not experienced receiving a solution from me, but that reason is not important in this
moment. What is important in this moment is for you to consider the possibility that now,
right now in front of you, there is an answer. Open your eyes and you will see it. Open
your mind and you will know it. Open your heart and you will feel that it is there.

“Only if you call out to me in absolute knowing will you be aware that your answer has been given you. Because it is whatYO U know, whatYO U feel, and whatYO U declare that will be true in your experience. If you call out to me in hopelessness. I will be there, but your despair may blind you, and block you from seeing me.

“Yet you must stop judging yourself. The one making the strongest judgment is you.
Others may judge you from the outside looking in, but they do not know you, they do not
see you, and so their judgments are not valid. Do not make them valid by taking them on
as your own. They have no meaning.

“Do not wait for others to see you as you really are, for they see you through the eyes of their own pain. Know, instead, that I see you now, in wonder and in truth, and that what I see of you is Perfect. As I look upon you I have but one thought: “This is my beloved, in

“Forgiveness is not necessary in the Kingdom of God. God cannot be offended or
damaged in any way. There is only one question of importance in the entire universe, and
it has nothing to do with your guilt or innocence. It has to do with your identity. Do you
know who you really are? When you do, all thoughts of loneliness disappear, all ideas of
unworthiness evaporate, all contemplations of hopelessness transmute into wondrous
awareness of the miracle that is your life. And of the miracle that is you.

“You are surrounded in this very moment by a hundred thousands angels. Accept, now, their ministrations. And then, pass their gifts on to others. For it is in giving that you shall be received, and it is in healing that you shall be healed. The miracle for which you have been waiting has been waiting for you. You will know this when you become the miracle that another awaits.

“Go then and perform your miracles, and allow your death to be the moment of your
greatest glory, not an announcement of your greatest sorrow. Use death as a tool with
which to create, not with which to destroy, with which to move forward, not with which to
go back. In this choice will you have honored Life Itself, and allowed Life to bring you your
own grandest dream, even while you are living with your physical body: peace within your
soul at last.”

Thank you.
Thank you for those words.
I hope and pray they may be heard by every hurting person.

“You are speaking of euthanasia, which is quite a different thing. This is when a person
realized that her or his life is already over in every practical way, and that there is nothing
left to experience except unremitting physical pain or total loss of dignity in the death
process.

“Euthanasia cannot be equated with suicide. People who are contemplating suicide in the middle of an otherwise active and reasonably healthy life are making a very particular kind of decision. People who end a life that is a very short time away from ending anyway, with every medical evidence indicating that, are making an entirely different kind of decision.

“Those who see clearly by every medical evidence that their physical life is all but over
may choose to ask, ‘Is it necessary to suffer this final pain and indignity?’ Each soul
will have an answer that is right for it, and no soul will answer the question incorrectly--
because there is no such thing as an ‘incorrect’ answer.”

Sixth Remembrance
You are different from God, but you are not divided from
God. That is why you can never die.

describe some basic spiritual principles of life that would make it easier for us to
understand life itself, and death. And while you’ve since touched on several, is there any
one single basic life principle that could just throw open wide the door to deeper
understanding in one moment?

“While this may appear to some to be a very elementary piece of information, when you apply this basic principle of lifeTO life, you create a container within which you can hold all the previous Remembrances you’ve bought yourself here, as well as those to come.

“The implication of the Sixth Remembrance are enormous. If you are clear that you and God are one, and that there is no separation between you, it changes the context within which you experience that everything in your life has happened, is happening, and ever will happen.

and embrace the truth that you are the cause of your own death, or that there are no
victims and no villains in the world. This can make your path to Completion less arduous,
and your death more peaceful.

all of life, and you create all ofy our life. It’s that simple.
“If you think of it that way, you can hold it in your consciousness.
“You and God are creating all the time--you on the micro level, God on the macro. Are you

“What is important to understand is that there is no single way in which life makes God
physical. Some waves are small, barely a ripple, while other waves are huge, thunderous
in their sweep. Yet, whether minuscule or monstrous, there is always a wave. There is no
time when there is not a wave on the ocean. And while every wave is different, not a
single one is divided from the ocean itself.

“The ocean does not get ‘smaller’ every time a wave hit’s the sand. Indeed, the incoming
wave demonstrates, and therefore reveals, the ocean’s majesty. Then, by receding into
the ocean, it restores the ocean’s glory.

“That is correct. You are now looking at it in a different way. You are changing your
perspective. This will change your perception. And it will alter your experience. Perception
creates experience.”

“You have come to the body to experience an aspect of yourself, as we discussed earlier.
It could be that this aspect of you is experienced through something you do--that is,
through a physical activity--or through some particular way that you are being, even if you
are actually doing nothing.

“Well, since we are talking a lot about what you call ‘death’ and ‘dying’ here, let’s say that you are sitting quietly at a funeral. You are doing nothing, really, except sitting there. You are hardly moving. But you are being something, yes?

“Yes, and this is the way you create what you are being. In short, if you are being sad, it is because of the way you are looking at things. And if you are looking at things. And if you are being inwardly joyous at that funeral, it is for exactly the same reason. And how you are looking at things is a choice you make. It is a Free Will Choice that defines who you are and who you wish to be, and how you wish to experience yourself.

“You can change your perspective in any situation by changing your mind about how you want to ‘look at it.’ you can decide what you want to see, and then, having placed it there, you will find it there.”

“Yes, you. That is right. You will decide. You will decide whether that is a very empowering statement by how you see it. And so, the effect is circular. What you see is what you get, and what you get is what you see.

So, getting back to our example, one way for me to be inwardly joyous as I near the time
of my own funeral is for me to understand that when I die, it is because I choose to die.
Everything that happens to me, I am, at some level, causing--including my own death, and
the timing of it.

“That is exactly what I am saying here, yes. This will bring you great peace at the time of
your death. Knowing that you and God are One, and that you are making this decision
jointly, can take you to a place of soft serenity.”

Yet that idea requires humanity to believe in a whole different kind of universe. In our
universe, most people who believe in God at all think of God, not themselves, as First
Cause. And God is certainly the cause of their death. They die when God decides to ‘call

Okay, so no one dies ‘before his time.’ You’ve said it over and over here, so I guess I have to either accept this or reject the entire notion. I’m going to accept it as true, even though it is difficult for me to do so.

I guess I’ve still been clinging to the notion…look, I’ve heard all that you’ve just said,
but…I guess there is a part of me that’s still clinging to the notion that things happen to us
that we do not want to have happen, that ‘stuff happens’ that we do not create within
ourselves. But I get now that nothing happens by chance, and so, no one dies when he or
she does not choose to die.

Yes, okay, I see. And I guess you do have to keep making this point over and over again,
because it runs counter to everything humanity has ever told itself about all this. And I
have to tell you something. Just as I am writing this, just as we are engaging in this very
specific part of what I expect to be a very long conversation. Life Itself is contriving to
make me more and more clear that what you are saying is true. Nothing happens by
chance. I mean, my life itself, my everyday life, is convincing me of this--and it is doing
so at this very moment.

Can it possibly be ‘by chance’ that, just as we were having the exact exchange above, I
took a short break from my writing and, for a change of pace, decided to open my mailbox,
only to find a letter from a reader?

She mentioned the Conversation with God books, in which she read that we choose our earthly life situations. So she wonders: has she chosen this situation for herself--or is it part of her former fiancé’s model of life?

Please hear me at the depth of your soul when I tell you
how sorry I am that this has occurred in your life. I do not want
to give you ‘easy answers’ here that make it all sound so simple
and make you wonder why any of this should be a problem…

Jackie, thisIS a problem, and a huge sadness, and you have every right to feel the way you are feeling, which is angry and sad and confused and frustrated and searching for answers.

The first thing that I want to advise is that you allow
yourself to have all the feelings that you are having without
trying at any level to control or regulate or limit or restrict
them. Just have your feelings and let them be what they are
from moment to moment.

It is remarkable that you should present me with this
question today, because I am just now bringing through my
next CwG dialogue book, called Home with God in a Life That

And yes, it is true that in the latest CwG book as in all the
Others, God is telling us that nobody dies at a time or in a way
that is not of his or her own choosing. Yet God also makes it
clear that this may not be a conscious choice, but may have
been chosen at a level of awareness to which only the Soul
has access.

If this is the case, it would mean that your fiancé` did not
choose at a conscious level to die when he did. At that level,
his death may have been as much a surprise to him as it was
to you. I suspect that it was. I do not believe that your fiancé’
consciously chose to leave you.

It is true in my awareness that sometimes the Soul chooses
things at a subconscious or a super-conscious level that it
would never choose at a conscious level, and that it does this

in order to fulfill its Larger Agenda. Dying nearly always falls
into this category. Very few people choose to die when and
where and how they do, consciously. I believe that Christ did. I
believe that the Buddha did. I believe that other souls have
done so, but I believe that this circumstance is very rare.

Try, therefore, not to be too angry with your fiancé`, but
rather, allow yourself to direct your anger toward the
circumstance that took him away from you just as you were
really beginning to enjoy your life together. I deeply understand
and appreciate how devastated you are, and as I said, you have
a right to be.

In terms of understanding all that has happened, however, I
believe that it is possible that one of the goals of the soul of
your fiancé’ was to experience itself in Perfect Union and
Wonderful Relationship, after many attempts in this lifetime,
and many attempts in previous lifetimes as well. I believe that
your fiancé` was a gift to you--and that you were an even
more extraordinary gift to him. You were what he, too, had
been searching for.

‘agreement,’ allowing him to experience himself, at last, as much, much more of Who he Really Is. I believe that he felt more ‘himself’ with you than with anyone else he was ever with. Not only in this lifetime, but, perhaps, in many, many lifetimes.

This may all be a little hard to take, Jackie, on a human
level--so I am going to ask you to see if you can‘j um p’ to a
very high spiritual level to understand what I am going to say
next I believe it is possible that your fiancé died of happiness.

You are right, Jackie, he never did have a seriously ill day
in his life. He was in good condition, he did have his
checkups regularly, etc, and there was no earthly reason for
him to die so suddenly. There may, however, have been a
spiritual reason.

“He may, quite simply, have finally finished his earthly
agenda--with your help; with the assistance of your, the
friendly soul with the specific intention of providing him that
last assistance so that he could return Home, and then move
forward with his evolution.

You showed this wonderful man, Jackie, just how wonderful
relationship could be, and just how wonderfulHE could be
inside a relationship. As I said, Jackie, I believe that your
relationship created a context within which he could have an
experience of himself unlike any he had ever had before. I will
go further. I am willing to bet that he actually told you this. I am
sitting here believing that he actually said this to you in so
many words--that he never experienced himself before the
way he experienced himself with you.

And so, Jackie, your fiancé left his body suddenly, gloriously
celebrating what he had found and what he had finally
experienced of himself the fullness of Who he is.

The great sadness that you are being asked to bear is all
part of the enormous, unspeakably wonderful and spiritually
generous gift that you have been invited by life to give this
very special ‘other’ (which is really just another part of you)
so that you, also, may know Who You Really Are.

And so, the Divine Purpose for your relationship has been
served and was completed in Divine Form and with Divine
Timing. The beginning of your relationship in this form was by
Divine Timing (as I am sure you know, because I believe you

I believe that you may be preparing to serve an even larger
agenda in the years ahead, using this experience to bring help
and healing to others who find themselves in many different
life situations, each of which will be challenging to them at a
spiritual level. I believe that you may be preparing to move
forward in the joy of giving people back to themselves.

Some of these others whom you will encounter may be
people who have lost their belief in love, who think that the
right and perfect relationship is simply not possible or open to
them, and who think they would be better to just forget the

whole idea as a great hoax of the universe. You will be able to
tell them differently, and encourage them to remain open,
always, to the possibility.

Some of these others may be people who find themselves
in sudden bereavement who do not understand and cannot
‘see the perfection’ in the moment at hand, but only
experience the loss and the pain, and who may even believe
that they simply cannot go on. You will be able to tell them.
differently, and encourage them to remain open, always, to the
next grand gift of life, and to the next extraordinary moment
of knowing and to expressing their highest notion of
themselves, of God, of love, and of Who They Really Are.

Of course, all of this is conjecture on my part. I could be
‘making it all up,’ Jackie, and I admit that. But I always see a
larger purpose and a larger agenda at play in life’s events--
including life’s most tragic events, and life’s saddest. I believe
that at the end of our lives in our present physical form, all of
this will become instantly and joyously clear to us, and we will
rejoice and be glad in the perfect symmetry of it all.

can never end, and that he is able to be there with you at any
time you wish to call on his love and his spiritual energy to help
you as you continue your journey, even as he continues his.

I believe that your journeys will always be together, even as
they have been together for eons past. This is not the first
time the two of you have been together in physical form--
and this, too, is something that I believe you both recognized
and understood. Nor, my dear, Jackie, will it be the last. Indeed,
your relationship never ends, ever.

It is ongoing even now, even in this very moment--for
who do you think it is that brings you these words? Do you
imagine it is me? Or could it be some other, speaking through
me, bring this message to you?

Do not seek to ‘not be sad,’ Jackie, during this time of loss.
Sadness is one of the heart’s ways of honoring another. So,
too, is happiness. You honor the soul of your beloved, Jackie,
by feeling your sadness fully now. And you will honor the soul of

As we await that day, my wish for you is to find peace for
your soul, Jackie. May the peace that passeth all understanding
be with you, and abide with you, both now, and even
forevermore.

“I am saying just the opposite.Ev e ry thing is as it appears. And appearances are based
on perceptions. And perceptions are based on perspectives, and perspectives are not
objectives. They are subjective. They are not something that you experience, they are
something that youc hoos e.”

“It is what you observe, given your perspective.
“You observe nothing ‘objectively.’
“Objective observation is impossible.”

“This dialogue is taking you to where you have always wanted to go: Home. If you can get
there before you die, you will never worry again about death. You will never be afraid of
dying.

“Then our discussion of perception theory and quantum physics has not been a diversion
at all--and now perhaps you understand why we are approaching life, and life after
‘death,’ from this angle.”

“But I know that you think that it does, and so, for you, it absolutely does.
“That’s what we’re talking about here.
“We’re talking about perceptions, and the perspectives from which they arise.”

“This is not a straight-line dialogue. We are moving in swirls here, spiraling back to many
important points many times. Not just twice, but perhaps three or four times. This will be
evident to you as our conversation continues. And this will not be accidental. This will be a
quite intentional redundancy.

“What is being discussed here is nothing less than the cosmology of the cosmos. The
secrets of all life. The expeditions of the soul after death. The nature of time and space.
And at least two ideas that will rock the cosmology boat. And sometimes you have to hear
things more than once to really be able to absorb them. So let’s move on. We’ve much to
cover. Ready?

“In this case, let’s go back to something that you can pull up from your own memory. Talk about taking something from your own ‘walk through life’--did you ever find yourself out walking when suddenly it began to rain?”

Well, I can remember, actually, experiencing both. I mean, I remember one time that this happened when I absolutely experienced it as a bother. I was furious that it had started raining. I ran for cover as fast as I could, but it was no use. I got soaked.

tore her clothes off and began dancing in the rain! She was dancing and hopping and
jumping for joy, and I was standing there dumbfounded, my soaked head of hair falling in
streaks across my forehead.

She laughed at me and dared me to join her. So I did. And we danced around that parking
lot for almost five minutes before the police came. The officer was very nice--it was a
woman, actually-and she simply asked us to put our clothes back on because she did not
want to have to arrest us for indecent exposure or becoming a public nuisance. All three of
us laughed, and we followed her request, but it was a moment in my life I will never forget.
It was sheer, unbridled joy. It was joyful mischief.

The way I looked at them. My perspective. In one instance I had on a business suit and
was heading for a very important meeting, and my perspective was that the rain was a
nuisance.More than a nuisance. It was an intrusion on my plan. It was an obstacle in my
way. In the other instance I was dressed quite casually and had no specific time that I
needed to be anywhere. It ‘looked like’ the rain could be fun.

“You could have decided that the business meeting wasn’t that important, or that your showing up a little messed would be completely understood and wouldn’t matter, yes? You could have ‘seen it that way,’ yes?”

“So now think of the rain as ‘ultimate reality.’ You couldn’t change the fact that it was
raining, but you could change your experience of the rain by changing the way you looked
at it. You couldn’t change Ultimate Reality, but you could experience Ultimate Reality any
way that you wished.

Okay. But seriously, I mean really--can this be true? It’s one thing to say that there is life
after death, but it’s another thing to say that death itself does not exist. You have said
something enormously important here.

“In just about every place I’ve ever been quoted--no matter what religion, no matter what culture, no matter what time period of context--I’ve been correctly described as declaring that death does not exist--not in the way that most of you think of it, which is as the end of all life. There is no such thing as the ‘end of life.’”

“Sorry. But the truth is that at the moment of death you will experience what you believe, and your belief will be based on what you perceive, and your perception will be based on your perspective.”

“A lot of things--including your decision in the moments after your death that the way you are presently seeing things isn’t working. That is, that it is not bringing you an experience you choose to have. Such a decision would immediately alter your experience.”

“Let me begin by saying that there is one thing thatw il l be the same for everyone, and that is that your death will be experienced in what you would call stages, or phases, and the first stage is the same for everyone.

“In stage one, at the moment of your death, you will instantly experience that life has gone on. This will be the same for everyone. There could be a brief period of disorientation, as you come to realize that you are not with your body, but, instead, are now separate from it.

“Soon you will come to understand that while you have ‘died,’ you have not ended your
life. It is in this moment that you will realize and experience fully, perhaps for the first time,
that you are not your body; that a body is something you can have, but not something you
are. Immediately, you will move into stage two of your death. And this is where individual
paths diverge.”

“If the belief system that you embraced before your death includes the certainty of life
going on, once you grasp that you have ‘died,’ you will know immediately what is
happening, and you will understand it. Your second stage will then be the experience of
whatever you believe happens after death. This will be instantaneous.

“Heaven will be exactly as you imagined it would be, as will hell. If you have no idea about the specifics of either, you will make them up right on the spot. Then, these places will be created for you that way, instantly.

“Now…can youCRE ATE a personal ‘hell’ for yourself if you choose to, or if you believe
this is what you ‘deserve’? Yes. So you can send your self to ‘hell,’ and that‘he l l ’ will turn
out to be exactly as you imagine or feel a need for it to be--but you will not stay there for
one moment longer than you choose to.”

“You’d be surprised. A lot of people live within a belief system that says they are sinners
and must be punished for their ‘offenses,’ and so they will actually stay in their illusion of
‘hell,’ thinking that this is what they deserve, that this is what they ‘have coming’ to
them, that this is what they have to do.

“It will not matter, however, because they will not suffer at all. They will simply observe
themselves from a detached distance and see what is going on--something like watching
an instructional video.”

“To use another analogy, it would be a bit like watching your child ‘play-act’ some little
scene in your kitchen. The child appears to be ‘suffering,’ holding her hand to her head or
clutching her stomach, hoping that Mommy will let her stay home from school. Mommy
understands perfectly that nothing is really happening. There is no suffering going on.

“So these observers would be watching themselves in this self-created ‘hell,’ but they would know that it is not real. And when they have learned what they feel they need to learn (that is, reminded themselves of what they had forgotten), they will ‘release’ themselves and go on to the third stage of death.”

“Eventually, yes. They will remember all that they created the experience of their ‘heaven’
to remember, then they will realize the same thing that they realized at the end of their
earthly life.”

“You will be confused and uncertain as to what is happening, and this will cause you to deal with what is going on in an entirely different way. You will realize that you are not your body, that you are‘de a d’ (this happens to everyone in ‘stage one’), but since you are uncertain about what, if anything, comes next, you may spend a lot of time trying to figure out how to ‘proceed.’

“In the moments after your ‘death’ you will all find yourself in the presence of the most loving angels and guides and gentle spirits, including the spirit or essence of everyone who has ever been important to you in your life.”

“The presence of these loved ones and angels will be of enormous help to you, assisting
you in becoming ‘oriented’ and understanding exactly what is happening to you, and what
your ‘options’ are.”

“Those others in the room often try to convince dying people that they are seeing things--
and theyAR E seeing things, things that are very real, but things that other people cannot
see because of their limited perspective. Your perspective widens immensely after
‘death’--and often in the moments just before you die.”

“ItIS exciting. In fact, your death can be one of the most exciting moments of your life. It
all depends on what you believe. As in life, in death what you believe is what you will
experience.

“For instance, if you donot experience the presence of these spirits at the time of your
death it will be because you do not expect to, and because the possibility of their presence
lies outside of your belief system. Yet if you so much as hope that these loving presences
will be there, you will immediately perceive them.”

“If you die in a place of certainty that there isNO life after death, once you realize that you
have died you will move immediately into stage two, which will be the experience that
there is no life.”

“The soul will awaken through the ministrations of loved ones and angels. Then it will
wonder where it is, why nothing is going on, what has happened. It will begin to put two
and two together, and in that moment the soul will move into a conscious awareness of
stage two of death.”

“Don’t worry. It’s not a ‘bad’ thing. It’s just about getting reoriented. It’s like quickly flipping
through all the TV channels with a remote. There’s nothing harmful going on. You just
have to decide which ‘channel’ you want to watch.

“If you start to feel a little overwhelmed and begin wishing that you had some help, you will
immediately become aware of those loved ones and angels and spirits who have been
hovering around you and ministering to you, waiting for you to notice they are there.

“But now it is important for you to understand that none of the scenarios that I have just laid out for you have anything to do with Ultimate Reality. That is experienced in the third stage. The scenarios I have just described are the first two stages, the earliest stages, of your ‘after-death experience.’”

Okay. So, in the first stage of ‘death,’ what occurs is that I will realize that I am no longer my body. In the second stage of ‘death’ I will move through whatever I have imagined or decided will happen when I ‘die.' And in the third stage? Will you describe that for me now? What will happen to me then?

Boy, what a message. I was certainly expecting more than this. I was expecting you to tell
me that God’s presence in the Afterlife would act as an ‘override,’ obliterating all
obstructing belief and filling the moment with Absolute Glory.

“God will fill the moment with Absolute Glory, for there is nothing more glorious than the
Act of Pure Creation, and God will allow you to create in the moment of your death
whatever you wish.

“This is what happens in stage two of death. In stage three you will come to know a larger Truth about you--and then you will remember again how to create it. For you are a part of the God that you are here talking about. Yet even if you continue to imagine that you are not, you may still create whatever experience you wish.

“Remember what I told you before. If you so much ashope that someone will come to
help you, you will be surrounded by loved ones and angels. If you so much ashope that
you will meet Muhammad, Muhammad will guide you. If you so much as hope that Jesus
will be there, Jesus will be there. Or Lord Krishna. Or the Buddha. Or just simply the
Essence of Pure Love.

“Hope plays a wonderful role in ‘death’ and in‘l i fe.’ (They are the same, of course.)
Never give up hope.Ne v e r. Hope is a statement of your highest desire. It is the
announcement of your grandest dream. Hope is thought, made Divine.”

“What you hope, you will eventually believe, what you believe, you will eventually know,
what you know, you will eventually create, what you create, you will eventually experience,
what you experience, you will eventually express, what you express, you will eventually
become. This is the formula for all of life.

I love when information about life is given to use so succinctly. What a gift! Poets like
Robert Frost give us that gift. And song writers. And playwrights. And authors. And
messengers and teachers. I love what another poet. Lisel Mueller, put in a free verse
poem entitled ‘Hope.’”

…is the motion that runs
from the eyes to the tail of a dog,
it is the mouth that inflates the lungs
of the child that has just been born.
It is the singular gift
we cannot destroy in ourselves,
the argument that refutes death,
the genius that invents the future,
all we know of God.

You experience a three dimensional world, but you
do not live in one. Ultimate Reality is far more
complex than you may ever have imagined.

Yes, but I keep revisiting it over and over again because something about that statement just doesn’t seem to want to sit well with me, and I’ve been trying to figure out what it is. Now I think I’ve got it.”

seem to suggest would be necessary for them to have a glorious experience. I would have
to think that more people die in…what would be the word?--apprehension at least, if not
fear or dread or confusion or shock at the suddenness of it, as in an accident, or
whatever…

“I understand your concern. Yet comfort comes in knowing that all souls find peace and
joy and love. All souls move to stage three of death, the time of mergence with the
Essence.

“In the meantime, there is no such thing as ‘pain’--emotional, physical, or spiritual--in the
‘afterlife.’ I mentioned earlier that even those who imagine they are going to ‘hell’ and
then send themselves there do not suffer. They simply observe themselves having the
experience, but without emotional connection to it.”

“That’s right. That’s the level of detachment there is. You simply give yourself the
experience in order to review it, pulling from it whatever wisdom there is to extract, but you
do not suffer. In life after ‘death’ there is no such thing as suffering.”

So what if the person expects suffering? What about a person who chooses to suffer, who feels that it’s the only way they can ‘earn their way’ into heaven, or ‘pay for their sins’? I thought you said that a soul can experience anything it wants to experience after death.

“In the moment anything occurs that the soul experiences as not desirable, the very
thought that it is not desirable causes the inner experience of the soul to be instantly
altered. And so there is no suffering. Not even for the person who powerfully imagines that
he or she should be punished.

“They would create the experience of their imagining, but they will not experience it as
they had imagined, for the simple reason that as soon as they have the experience, they
will choose not to.”

“The level of awareness in the Afterlife precludes the possibility of anyone willfully
choosing what is not real. And the soul would know and understand immediately that the
concept and the idea and the experience of ‘suffering’ is not real.

“In the first stage of death, the soul comes to understand that the body with which it spent
physical life is not real. That is, it is not who the soul really is. In the second stage of
death, the soul comes to understand that the mind, with all of its thoughts, is not real. That
is, it is not who the soul really is.

“It is from the place of this enhanced perspective that the soul begins to create and
experience itself. As soon as the soul sees and realizes that it is not a body, its
perspective shifts greatly, as you can imagine. This is, in fact, what propels the soul into
the third stage of death, when all thoughts--not just‘ba d’ thoughts, but even their own
thoughts of ‘heaven’--are dropped away, and Ultimate Reality is experienced.

“And so, even in the case of the person who believes sincerely that he must suffer, that he deserves to suffer, that suffering is the only way to redeem himself in the eyes of his God, the very idea of redemption, and suffering as a means to achieve it, becomes no longer meaningful within the enlarging perspective of the soul.

“It is not a question of being impossible. It is a question of being meaningless. The soul
would have no reason to create certain experiences--beyond the fact of the
‘remembering’ that is involved. Once the soul has remembered that suffering is not a
reality, but merely an experience created in the human mind, it will have achieved what it
sought to achieve with the creation of its own hell, and the experience will thereafter be
meaningless.

“This is because, in a sense, the soul ‘knows too much’ to get anything more out of such experiences. It would be like a magician performing his own tricks over and over again--for an audience of one:hims e lf. “

“There is no such thing as ‘the tiniest moment.’ Your question resides inside of your
reality of what you call‘ti m e,’ where things happen sequentially. Yet all the things that I
have described as happening to a soul after death happen at the selfsame instant.”

“That is correct, according to your terminology. Yet those stages are experienced
simultaneously--with each new experience ‘erasing’ the old. And so it is as if the old never
happened. You ‘are’ what you ‘are’ Right Now, and it is very much as if you never were

“There is no word for this experience in your language, so we’ll have to make one up.
Let’s say that all of life is ‘sequentaneous.’ It is ‘sequential’ and ‘simultaneous’ at the
same time.”

I don’t know what to say. I suppose that everything and anything is possible, and I am
willing to admit that I don’t know everything there is to know about Ultimate Reality, but I
can only go so far. Even if I could go there conceptually, I can’t imagine being there
experientially. I can’t imagine the experience of it.

“This is true of all of your lifetimes, not just the part of your experience that you call This
Particular Lifetime, or the Afterlife. The difference is, in the Afterlife you know it. You
experience it.”

But if everything is happening simultaneously…that would mean there would have to be ‘alternative realities.’ Are you telling me there are such things as ‘parallel universes’ running alongside ours, in which the ‘I’ that is ‘me’ is having other experiences?

Well, you told me at the outset that some parts of this conversation might seem ‘way out’ to people, and you’re certainly keeping your promise. Lots of folks would say that that last scenario is just plain science fiction.

“It means that Ultimate Reality is far more complex than you may ever have imagined. It
means there is more going on here than meets the eye. I tell you thatAL L possibilities
exist at all times. You are choosing the possibility that you wish now to experience from a
multidimensional field of infinite possibilities. And there is another ‘you’ makingdiffe re nt
choices, right here, right now.”

“You walk into the room, and notice some things ‘first.’ Maybe there is a pair of larger-
than-life statues of nude human figures in the corner. Naturally, they catch your eye. You
move toward them to check them out. Or perhaps there is something else equally
dramatic hanging about. A huge stuffed bear. Or a wide-screen TV blaring on the side
wall. Your attention goes there at once. Your mind goes there immediately.”

“Now you begin to look around, and you start to see other things, smaller things, less
dramatic things. Finally, you move toward a bookcase in the middle of the room. Your
eyes light upon a particular title on the binding of a book in the center of the middle shelf
directly in front of you. This is what you came into this room for. The statues caught your
eye, and you moved toward them, but this is what you came here for.

“Yet everything in that room was there. It all existed simultaneously. You saw what was there, ‘discovered’ it, and therefore experienced it, sequentially. Thus, the moment was truly ‘sequentaneous.’”

“A thing does not ’suddenly appear’ when you see it. Your seeing it makes it suddenly
’appear’ toYO U. Those who dabble in elementary quantum physics would say that
nothing is there until you see it. Your seeing it there puts it there. Yet more advanced
science now knows that even this is not the ultimate statement of how things are.

“In Ultimate Reality, thingsAR E there before you see them. That is, multiple possibilities exist at all times. Every conceivable outcome of every conceivable situation exists right here, right now--and isoc c urring right here, right now. The fact that you see only one of them does not, in the literal sense, ’put it there’--it puts it ’here,’ in your mind.”

“When you pass a person spread out on the sidewalk, unkempt, unshaven, gulping a
bottle of wine, what makes you choose to see either a ’street bum’ or a ’sidewalk saint’?
When you see a written notice from your employer that you have been ‘downsized’ what
makes you choose to see either a ‘horrible disaster’ or a ‘wonderful opportunity’?
When you see a television report of an earthquake or a tsunami, with thousands killed,
what makes you choose to see either a ‘calamity’ or the playing out of ‘perfection’?

This reminds me of the story of Don Quixote, the man of La Mancha, in which one man sees the world through different eyes, eyes that ‘burn with the fire of inner vision’--as Joe Darion’s lyrics in a song from the musical stage put it, Don Quixote conceives ‘the

He finds a shaving bowl and, turning it over, sees it as a helmet, wearing it proudly on his
head. He encounters a wench of a barmaid, Aldonza, and sees her as Dulcinea, a
beautiful damsel, pure and true. He asks her for a token that he might carry into battle,
and when she derisively throws him a bar rag, he see it as her scarf, and carries it next to
his heart. He rides off deciding, ‘I am I, Don Quixote, the Lord of La Mancha. My

“Of course you are, because this is all very natural. Your soul understands all of this--
including ‘sequentaniality’--perfectly. Your soulk nows that all realities exist. The man on
the sidewalk isboth the street burna nd the sidewalk saint. Aldonza isboth the barmaid

your life. Andnone of it is real. None of it. You are making it all up. You create your
experience by deciding what part of All That Is you choose to look at. And you may very
well look right past something that you were trying to find.”

Brother, do I gettha t. Some people tell me they are looking for their perfect mate, but
when that person is sent to them by the heavens, they don’t even see him or her, because
they are so distracted by things such as appearances, or what they describe as flaws. Don
Quixote saw the barmaid as a beautiful damsel, and she became one.

This looking right past something even applies to physical objects. I can’t tell you how
many times I’ve gone searching for something that was right in front of my face, but
because of one distraction or another I did not look at it. I looked right past it! And so I
leave that ‘room’ (that moment in my life) announcing to all concerned, ‘It’s not there. I

“It is no accident that magicians and spiritual masters have often been thought of in much
the same way, and called ‘mystics.’ The wordsmy s tic a l andma gic a l are often put
together to describe a particular person or experience.

“There is nothing mysterious about the universe once you look right at it, once you see it multi-dimensionally. This is not easy for most people to do, however, given their limited perspective.

“You have placed yourself with a body, inside of Space and Time, seeing, perceiving, and
moving in the limited directions of which the body is capable. Yet your body is not Who
You Are, but something that youhav e. Time is not something that passes, but something
that you pass through, as you would pass through a room. And Space is not really ‘space’
at all, as in a ‘a place where there is nothing,’ for no such place exists.

“As you move down the Corridors of Time, you come to experience that Space/Time is
vast. The ‘Only Moment There Is’ is called the Space/TimeCO NTI NUUM precisely
because this space/time reality continues to always be.

“You can split your Self up and move through the Singularity in many different directions. You call these varying movements through the Space/Time Continuum ‘lifetimes.’ These are the Cycles of the Self that reveal the Self TO the Self through the Cycling OF the

If we are the Eternal Essence, moving through the Singularity that we call Space and
Time, on a continuous and never-ending Cycle of the Self Through the Self, how, then, do
we ever experience eternal life with you--WITH GOD--as we were promised?

What, then, is the role of death in all this? And are you saying that this is heaven? Is this ongoing, never-ending Cycle as good as it gets? Do we never experience the ‘oneness’ with you of which it has been written? What of that moment of Pure Bliss about which the mystics have sung praises, when the individual soul is reunited with the All?

“Before our conversation is over, that moment will be described for you. Your thirst will be
quenched. As for your other questions, the movement of the Individuality through the
Singularity never ends, but continues in cycles, as has been described.”

“You use what you call ‘death’ as a means of marking the beginning and the end of these
sequences, and of replenishing your Self between them. 'Death’ is an energy shift that
produces enormous fluctuations in the rate and frequency of the vibration of your being,
propelling you back and forth between what you would call physical and spiritual life.

“Not if you define ‘death’ as the dropping away of the physical body. You may have the fullest experience of your spiritual self while remaining with your physical body. It is not necessary to drop away the physical in order to experience that. And you may have the fullest experience of your physical self while journeying within the spiritual realm.”

“Because the purpose of Eternity is to provide you with a Contextual Field of
Timelessness within which to offer you an opportunity for Endless Experience and a
Limitless Variety in the Expression of Who You Are.

“You would not plant only one flower in your garden. As beautiful as that flower may be, as
glorious as may be it’s fragrance, it is through variety of expression that the creation you
call ‘flowers’ is allowed toful ly flower.

“It is your intention toful l y know yourself through your experience, not to partially know yourself. To continue to exist with one physical form through all Eternity would not server that purpose.

“This is described in some of your religious traditions as the second coming of Christ--
although many of you have imagined that this can and will happen for only one person.
The fact is that each of you may experience your Self as the Christed One, and, in fact, all
of you have the potential of doing that at any time.

“You may embrace your Sonship at any moment, and do so in the moment that you
realize Who You Really Are. You will then have fully flowered in the garden of life. This is
the Garden of Paradise, of which you have written in your mythologies.

life. It is important, therefore, to understand that this is not the literal truth, this is a
metaphor. This is not how things are, this is a metaphor. Yet metaphors can be extremely
useful when ‘how things are’ cannot be explained easily in words that you will
understand--or when, indeed, there are no words for it.

You have imagined that there is so much you need
in order to be happy, and ever to survive.
You have made this all up.

“If you saw how much Matter there was in what you call ‘outer space,’ you would have no
problem at all. Proportionally, the molecules of that imaginary apple are at least as far
apart as the solid matter of the cosmos.”

“In this metaphor the walls of the ‘tunnel’ are the Corridors of Time. Along the corridor are
markings that make each millimeter of wall different from any other. Can you picture this
‘time tunnel’ with its many markings?”

Oh, gosh. I just saw that. You said that before, but I just saw that! Boy, a pictureis worth a
thousands words. And what an interesting reversal this picture presents. It’s a total
conceptual flip.

“This is your journey through Life. The markings on the tunnel tell you where you are.
These markings are actually pictures, and each marks a moment. Every Moment is like a
snowflake. There are no two alike in all of Eternity.

“You look at the images as you go by. You focus on them, and you move through the
tunnel in this way, focusing on one picture after the other. Finally, you get to the Center of
the apple. This has been your destination all along. This part of your journey is now over.”

“Entirely different. So different, it would be as if the apple had turned into an orange. This is what we shall call the spiritual realm, and comparing this to the physical world would be- -”

“And play with each other, while you are at it. Learn to play well. I have sent you to the
Garden of the Gods and offered you the whole world in which to play. I have provided you
the whole world in which to play. I have provided sufficient bounty to make certain that
there is enough for everyone. No one should go hungry, least of alldie of hunger. No one
need be without clothing to keep warm, nor should anyone be without shelter from the
storm. There is enough for everyone.

“Beyond that, nothing is needed to play well. Nothing more is required in order to have a glorious experience of Who You Are. You have imagined that there is so much you need in order to be happy, and even to survive. You have made this all up.

“As you approach your death, you will realize how little of any of this matters. Any of this. At the moment of your departure from physical life you will know that you have struggled for nothing. And then your long struggle will be over.

“You may arrive at this awareness at any time, and end your struggle in any moment. This opportunity and this experience are not held in reserve for only the moment of your death. If you watch closely you will see that each day of your life is crowded with ‘little deaths.’ You may use any one of them as a platform for this realization.”

is now that I have gone, in this metaphor, from the physical world into the spiritual realm,
traveling through the Core of My Being in order to get there. When I enter this different
reality, when I get to the ‘other side’ of Center, what happens then?

“If you do not release them, if you just do not want to let them go, you will take whatever core issues you have not fully released to the ‘other side,’ where you will confront them again and have a chance to deal with.

“If you have ended your own life consciously with the intent to escape these core issues,
you will not escape them, but will choose to reverse course and return to the physical
world, taking the same Time Tunnel and moving through the same experiences all over
again, from the very beginning.”

“Core issues could include the fear of abandonment, or of not being worthy or good
enough, or a thought of insufficiency, or an idea of separateness, or any one of a number
of false thoughts you may have about yourself.

“You are traveling through the Space/Time Continuum to know your Self and to
experience this fully--and then to re-create your Self anew in the next grandest version of
the greatest vision you ever held about Who You Really Are.

“Depending upon the nature of the experience you are giving yourself in the physical
world, you arrive at the Core of Your Being and venture to the 'other side ‘ in one state of
being or another.”

“Your experience at the CoreW ILL be one of knowing yourself fully. Indeed, you will
never know yourself fully. Yet, you may or may not choose to release any issues you
have. It will all depend on where you wish to go from there. What you wish to Know. What
you wish to Experience.”

“No. When you get to ‘the other side’--when you discover that the ‘apple’ has turned into
an ‘orange’ (or, in other words, that you have moved into a whole new reality)--you will
realize that you have come there for a reason, for a purpose, and that your work on ‘the

“It is the True Self, the Full Self, that you were introduced to and reminded of at the Core. The conditions on ‘the other side’ are perfect for the work of knowing the Self completely outside of the Core, and in doing this, you make your way along the continuing Corridor of Time to the outer edge of ‘the other side.”

“It is not work in the sense that it is difficult or arduous. It is, in fact, a great joy. It is the joy
of coming to Know what you experienced during your Total Immersion with the Essence
as real, as Who You Are. This ‘heaven.’ I will later describe exactly how this work is done.

“Immediately following your passing from physical life, when you moved into the third
stage of death, hope became reality. Every illusion of physical life was revealed to be just
that--an illusion. Your eyes were opened, your perspective was enlarged and enhanced,
and, having let go of the thought and beliefs held in your mind through the processes
encountered at the second stage of death, you began forming new beliefs.

“Hope’ is an energy. Nothing more and nothing less. All thoughts are energies, and what
is commonly called the Afterlife is nothing but a field of energy. It is a Cosmic field of
Infinite Possibilities. It is huge, it is vast, but it is quite basic and fundamental in its
chemistry, in its energetic elements, in it’s construction and function. In fact, its elegance
lies in its utter simplicity at its basis.

“The Afterlife is not a time or a place where souls exist as automatons, having no feelings
or emotions. Quite the contrary, it is a place where feelings and emotions run high,
creating a contextual field within which souls remember and come to Know once again
Who They Really Are.

“’Death’ is a process by which you re-establish that identity. What you have called
‘heaven’ is the place where you do this. Heaven is not an actual place, but a State of
Being. ‘The other side’ is not a location in the cosmos, it is an expression of the cosmos.

is the expression of Divinity Itself, in, as, and through the Self.
“Do you understand now?
“On ‘the other side’ you move away from the Core of Your Being and into the spiritual

“Once at the outer limit of ‘the other side’--that is, once you have taken what you have come to Know as far as you can go in the realm of Knowing, you--metaphorically--turn around and come back, moving through the spiritual realm once more, this time heading back to the Core of Your Being with all that you Know.

“You are taking your Knowledge back to the Core of Your Being, to now engage in the
most sacred process; the re-creation of Self anew, in your next grandest vision, at the
Core Level. In your moment of Free Choice, you decide, given all that you know, what you
next wish to experience of Who You Are, through the physical expression of it.

“You enter the Core of Your Being following what you call ‘death’ in order to re-establish
your identity. You move through the spiritual realm and through that process come to
Know Again who and what you are, in fullness. You return to the Core of Your Being prior
to what you call ‘birth’ tore -c re a te your identity anew, in the next grandest version of the
greatest vision ever you held about Who You Are. That is, you elevate your experience
and expression of Self, moving it to the next level. This is called evolution. You live your
life in the physical world, that you might Know your self in your own Experience. Re-entry
into physical life--an extremely ‘heavy,’ dense existence compared to what you have just
embraced--produces a loss of the full identity you have established. This is by design.
Were you to know the fullness of it, you could not experience it in any of it’s parts--and
that is precisely what you have come to the physical world to do. When this ‘work’ is done

‘die again,’ once more entering the Core of Your Being in order to re-establish the fullness of your identity. You re-emerge and move through the spiritual realm to express who and what you are in fullness through Knowing. You return to the Core of Your Being prior to what you call ‘birth’ to re-create your identity anew, in the next grandest version of it. You give your self birth and live your life in the physical world, that you might Know your Self in your own Experience. When this ‘work’ is done, you ‘die again,’ once more entering the Core of Your Being in order to re-establish the fullness of your identity. You move through the spiritual realm and through the process come to Know Again in fullness who and what

you are. You return to the Core of Your Being prior to what you call ‘birth’ to re-create
your identity anew, in its next grandest version. You give your self birth and live your life in
the physical world, that you might Know your Self in your own Experience. When this
‘work’ is done, you ‘die again,’ once more entering the Core of Your Being in order to re-
establish the fullness of your identity. You move through the spiritual realm and through
that process come to Know Again who and what you are. You return to the Core of Your
Being prior to what you call ‘birth’ to re-create your identity anew, in its next grandest
version.

“The process continues.
“Eternally.
“Total Immersion with the Essence at the Core of Your Being produces the energy

“Remember that I have told you, a soul arrives at Complete Knowing along the path of the
spiritual world, and at Complete Experiencing along the path of the physical world. Both
paths are used, and that is why there are two worlds. Put them together, united at the
Core, and you have the perfect environment within which to create Complete Feeling,

“Remember that I told you, the Moment of Absolute Awareness--that is, of Knowing and Experiencing and Feeling Completely Who You Really Are--is arrived at in steps. Each passage through a lifetime can be considered one of those steps.”

“Before you make this return journey to physicality, you first merge again with the very
Essence of the Self at the Core of Your Being. You merge, and then you emerge, to
journey onward to the outermost edge whence you came.”

May I ask a question here? What happens when I finish all the steps--we’ll call them lifetimes--and arrive, at last, at Absolute Awareness? Do I then finally get to remain in ‘heaven’? Do I stay inside the Core? Do I experience Total Immersion eternally?

“Some souls that have achieved mastery have chosen to return to experience this in the
same body in which they took their last steps on the path. Others have chosen to return to
physicality in an entirely different body, living an entirely different life.

“Either way, you would now Know fully Who You Really Are. You would be living in
Absolute Awareness. So absolute would be your awareness, so complete would be your
Knowing and Experiencing, that others would know and experience Who You Are as well,
and they would call you Rabbi, and Master, and Teacher.”

“Yes. And they might think that there is no other like you. Then it would be your job to
convince them that this is inaccurate, and that everyone of them is like you, and that they
can all know and experience all that you know and experience.

“What you Know and Experience would be your greatest joy, and you would seek to share
it with everyone. And you would think nothing of giving up your physical life if doing so
meant that you could show others who they really are.

“It might look as if other people are taking your life, but you would know exactly what is
happening. You would know that no one ‘dies’ against his will, neither at a time nor in a
way that is not of his choosing. And so you would use your ‘death’ as a moment of
creation, producing in many others an opening to a Much Larger Reality.

Well then, either way--whether I arrive at Absolute Awareness or continue on with my
journey there--it is true that eventually I would find myself at the outer edge of the ‘apple,’
where I began, yes?

THE TENTH REMEMBRANCE
Not all things are the way they seem. There are more possibilities
in every moment within every lifetime
than you might previously have imagined.

“You are asking deep and important questions about ‘life,’ ‘death,’ and ‘dying,’ and in
order to fully understand what you areca llin g ‘death’ and ‘dying,’ it is necessary to
explore some very esoteric topics of what might be termed ‘the cosmology of

“Now, you may travel through thea ppl ora nge repeatedly, along any route you choose. As
I said, this could be the same route you choose. As I said, this could be the same route
that you chose before, or it could be another route, another ‘tunnel.’

“Not just yet, but soon. I have a few more building blocks to put in place. The shorthand answer to your other question is, yes, you can move ‘backward in time.’ not just to other lifetimes, butw ithin any particular lifetime.”

“Correct. You could move up and down. And so, there are three ways you see that you could move--back and forth, left and right, up and down. Can you think of any other way you could move?

I’m thinking.
(Another very long pause)
No. I guess not.

“Because they experience themselves as part of a three-dimensional environment. But
what if I told you there is a fourth spatial dimension inside that tunnel, a fourth direction in
which you could move?”

“The tunnel has three distances…the distance from beginning to end
(forward/backward), the distance from side to side(le ft/ ri ght), and the distance top to
bottom (up/down). It also has a fourth distance--the distancea round it’s interior space

(circumference). This is the Fourth Dimension in Time…and so there are more ways of ‘moving through Time‘…and so there are more ways of 'moving through time’ than you might previously have imagined.”

“The number really does not matter here. If you wish to know more about this at the
technical level, talk to a quantum physicist. Again, this is simply today’s science. All that
matters for the purpose of this discussion is for you to know and understand that not all
things are the way they seem, that there are more possibilities in every moment within
every lifetime than you might previously have imagined.

“It has to do with what you wish to experience. All paths may lead to the same destination,
but each ‘route’ offers different experiences. Since you are making continuous journey’s
through the Space/Time Continuum, endless in number, taking any route that you wish,
there is no ‘risk’ of ‘losing a chance’ to take any particular route, so your options are
wide open.”

understand the statement.
“The word ‘nowhere’ with a space in the middle reveals: ‘now here.’
“You remain Now Here for all eternity.
“’Now Here’ is the only Time and Space there is.”

“This merging may be created by you at any time and place within the Continuum, but at
the Core of Your Being there is nothing else to ‘complete’ with it, nothing else to take your
attention from. It is all that there is.”

“If you Knew and ExperiencedIT and NOTHING ELSE, you would ultimately lose yourself
in the mergence. You would no longer know you wereha v ing the mergence, because
there would be noothe r Knowing or Experiencing with which to compare it. You would not
even know who you are. You would lose your ability to differentiate, to individuate your
Self.”

“I am telling you that all things exist in the Space/Time Continuum in perfect balance. The
Essence of Who You Are knows precisely and exactly when the Process of Life Itself calls
for you to merge with the Oneness and to emerge from it, in order for you to Know the
bliss of the Oneness through the Experience and the glory of its Individuation.

Rossiter W. Raymond was a writer, editor, orator, theologian, teacher, novelist, consulting mining engineer, and practicing lawyer who lived from 1840 to 1918, and his most famous quote was:

And contemporary entertainers are, too, I guess. Like Carly Simon. She used the
Raymond quote when she recorded a song written with Teese Gohl a few years ago to
send a message to a new and wider audience about being Home with God. And Alanis
Morissette. She has been saying a lot lately about life and the nature of existence through
her music. And filmmaker Stephen Simon through his movies, and now his Spiritual
Cinema Circle. And…

“Let me make something clear here. You area ll my messengers. Everyone of you.
“You are all sending a message to life about life through your own life, lived.
“The question is not, ‘Are you a messenger?’ The question is, ‘What is the message

“When you know that life is eternal you never again fear ‘death,’ because you see and understand the nature of it, the wonder of it, the glory of it, the perfection of it, and the impeccable gift that it is.”